Chapter Four

I kept CRYING

SCREAMING 

YELLING

FEELING LIKE I'M DEAD 

Ma7d kan fahem shisalfa, y7awlon yfhmon mni bas ana ma kint gadra atklm, t5yalo y3ni i'll graduate barra el s3oudia? what the fuck? and with people i don't know ba3ad, ya salam..

So Bashayer and Ghazal g3do 3ndi yhdoni, and the rest ra7o 3nd my mother ys2loha shfeni, mama was pissed too..nobody of us liked what's going on and the problem is we're doing it for dad..

I'll name it selfishness? madri. 

Ghazal: LEEN!! la tg3dain ketha t9ai7en walla ma ynfa3 nshoufik ketha w ma ngdr nsawi shay, mumkn tfhmena wish ga3d y9air? please? we need an explation.

I TOLD THEM. 

En7rag galbi lama 3lmt Ghazal And Bashayer, 7sait end 9idg it's the end of the world.

They were shocked, they didn't say a word, they just started crying and hugging me, it made me feel worse gassam bellah.

Bashayer has a strong personality, she knows how to cheer people up, thats why i felt like she would make me feel better, even though she cried as we did…..

Bashayer ba3ad ma nshft dmou3ha: Leen, 7bebti i know you're sad and you feel that you will be stranger and nobody would love you, bs you're a lovable person honestly! like come on kill elly bil mdrisa y7bonk, w b Dubai ma bt93b 3laik el dnya.

Ghazal: 9dgaini we'll see you there! anti t3rfain end nanzel wajed Dubai, i'll try my best to see you as much as it possible.

I didn't say a word, i just stared thinking...

Bhathi el l77'6at el banat rj3o, they were crying too..

7awlo ma ybaynonli bs obviously i knew they are crying…

it was the worst day ever, i cried le drat 3yoni 9art t3wrni, nobody knows how much i got hurt because of this.

after what happened, i told the girls i need to take some rest shwai, so i asked them to leave.

they left, it was kinda early but i really needed to think about my future, i mean like this is not easy, if i continued my education there y3ni 7atta jam3a, wish drani yemkn atzwaj emmarati ba3ad lol 9idg mob wgti haha..

Min el waggt elly 3lmoni enna bnngl ma klmt a7d min ahli abad, 3aysha b '3rfti, bas eni ma sweet nafsi theek el drama queen elly ma takel la la =)) i eat, drink and live in my room, even though jwal ma kent ared, ma aklm a7ad i just needed to be alone shway..

I got bored 9ra7tan lol, and i didn't feel like bbm-ing l2n el naas elly 3ndi ez3aj, so i decided to open twitter.

I opened twitter and suddenly i checked my followers and WALEED WAS FOLLOWING ME!! 

I got surprised 9ra7tan, bs i was like what the heck let's follow him back.

After 3 minutes jani DM from him saying:

@WaleedAl***: Heey!! kaifk?

@LAl***: Heey.. i'm not good at all ;p

@WaleedAl***: 3shan el moving?

@LAl***: yea...

@WaleedAl***: Listen, i know enik m76ma nafsyan w malek 5elgi a9lan..bas 9dgeni a7san shay bthi el ngla eni bkoon m3ik, m33na i don't know why you haven't come to any of el 3zayem 7g 3ayltna bas i really wanna see you more Leen, we need to know each other akthar.

He was so sweet, i felt guilty, i didn't reply 3la 6oul l2n i slept faj2a, 97ait shayfa rasli kalam..

@Waleedal***: Tara ma ag9ed shay, bas eni kint asttans lama kna nl3ab m3 ba3'9 lama kinaa bzran, t4kren=)) ? kaif kinaa nt'hawsh 24 sa3a, these days are the best and the oldest, w lama shtik b Starbucks estanst marra!!

@LAl***: hahahahaha, i do remember, and enshalla we'll see each other akthar henak, asasn ana ma3rf '3airkum henak =)) <3

@WaleedAl***: afa, y3ni bs l2n malek '3airna w ma tbain tzhgen bl7alk fa tklmena =)) ?

@LAl***: 7aram 3alaik, walla eni a7bkum klkum 59o9n ent w Lama =)) <3

you know what? i was really happy enaa Waleed bysafr m3na, yemkin hathaa elly 5lani ahda w astans, allah y3een.

so we were like DM-ing the whole time, it was fun, 5afaf 3ni shway.

So 3 days have passed, it passed 3a sre3 marra ma 7sait fehum gad ma kint msh'3oula ashes 3fshi w '3rfti w kkil shay.

wd3at el banat b a55er laila ly in Saudi Arabia, sawouli 7afla cute :') 3zmo kil el naas elly y7boni w a7bhum le bait Ghazal and they all came for me, isn't it the sweetest? kkaif btrkhum w arou7? :') 

The day of traveling is today.

i lied when i said that the day when they told me about moving is the worst day, that was MORE WORSE.

At The Airport…

Ashouf 3ayltna kilha msafra, w faj2a tji 3aylt abu Waleed, estanst hena =)) a5eran jaw ywnsoni =)) Sallamt 3ala Lama b 7rara, k2ni agoulha tara mali '3airk al7ain..

w slmt 3ala bagi el 3ayla w mnhum Waleed w e5t'hum el 9'3era Nouf =)) <3 she's cute t7sonha kbera m3nha baby klamha kalam kbar.

So Baba and 3mi abu Waleed wd3ona and dad hugged me and he was like take care of yourself and of your brother Ziyad, w la tsawen shay yz3l umk.

I didn't reply, i was still angry with him, a7san yestahl.

Ri7na el ent'9ar, and then they called us for the flight..

it was a new page for my life, this is gonna be so new for me, 7atta law Dubai janbna bs tara '3air w ne'6amhum marra '3air 3na, mafi zy el s3oudia.

tdroun wish elly estanst 3laih \o/ ? ena Bashayer And Ghazal byjoni, ma b7is bil we7da marra <3

At The Airplane...

Bgoulkum wain el amakin elly g3dna feha.

Ziyad and mom janb ba3a'9, Waleed w umh w e5ta Nouf janb b3'9, b3dain e7na warahum ana w Lama \o/

Lama 6la3t t5af min el 6yara l2nha tttwatr marra lamma trkb 6yara fa g3doha janb umha, w 6b3n Nouf ma tgdr tji mkanha so jabo Waleed janbi \o/\o/\o/ 

a9lan Nouf kant b7'9n umha lol =)) 9'3era cute.

Lamma ja Waleed ga3ad janbi wajhi t9fag, i mean like omg he's sitting next to me, bas b3dain 9ar el w'93 3adi, 6art el 6yara w jlsna ana w Waleed nsoulf, ma sktna abad, these two hours were like SA3AT WAJED gad ma h4rna.

B3dain...

9adamni!! i didn't expect that coming now, mo al7ain i'm not ready!

Waleed: Leen, can i have you in bbm please? 

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